Lord,

It's been a good day today, and I thank you for it...

And why not be thankful?  Should I be thankful only for the good times?

Well that's easy, right?

I also want to be thankful even when my days are not so easy, not so prosperous...not so great...

When I have mediocre days, even bad ones, I want to remember to thank you always...sometimes bad days remind me of how insignificant I can be in this world...

Sometimes, I feel that the weight of the world is falling down on me, and it tempts me to wonder whether you have forgotten me Lord...

I feel that sometimes my worst enemy is my own mind, wrestling with it for creating all sorts of turmoil within me...

It makes me wonder where you have gone Father...

It kind of makes me feel abandoned, almost inviting me to abandon you and aimlessly sail deeper into my darkness...

It does make me feel scared at first...I don't really like the feeling of being abandoned...it tempts me to think that I'm being betrayed by you Lord...

I realize though, thanks to you and your appointed Savior Jesus, that the Evil One is trying to do one thing, one small thing that can create a huge problem for me: to cut me off from you Lord.

(See how Satan does it...)

My weak humanity calls out for help Father, to light up my spiritual and physical eyes to overcome the darkness of the Evil One...

Inwardly however, I know I can trust you, that your love for me will not fail, and so I can continue to rejoice in your salvation for me Lord...

I can trust that my contact with you shall never be cut off because I love you Father and the appreciate all the good things you have already done for me...

(GM Evagrius)